be nice to me, i will be nicer to you...

have you ever have this feeling, knowing someone you thought so close to you and yet not close at all?
the feeling is just so superficial, doing for the sake of going through the process with no meaning at all... how terrible that can be? So what is the point of just going through what you "suppose" to do?

just felt that kinda of feeling. wonder if its lucky or unlucky to realise it so late, or rather its never too late.

why is that happening? so what went wrong?
communication breakdown, not wanting to share, not willing to open up, one way traffic.... living in a world full of lies which is the last thing one wants to know. of cos, we can't control/force each to behave the way you wish to, its all human beings.
it is suppose to be this way? NO, it wasn't like that in the past... or rather, it wasn't that bad at all.....

or should something drastic happen before each realised that they had neglected one another, and start feeling guilty and wish things will be better if things had happened in another way?

like what a colleague mentioned which i felt very true, "take care of me, and I will definitely take care of you. Ignore me and I'll ignore you too"....
all starts with "ME".....

its just getting from bad to worst..... why?
of course, many things, once broken, the crack can never be mend.... as much as you wish to...

perhaps i shouldnt be ranting here... but i guess, this is the best way to get things out of my head..... then again, ignoring is the best way to escape, but it will lead you nowhere but sorrows......