negative ions invading me...

is not happy.....

sob......

not happy about...
the new corn that grew on my finger, why grow another corn? what happen? i think i know what causes it.......

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breakout!

its into a week into my solemnisation & i am officially married. :) things just happened in a flash within split seconds, my status changed from ms see to mrs tan!! omg!! so funny esp when i have to change from saying "my bf my bf" to "my lao goooooooooong my laaaaaaooooooooo gong!!!!!" *so mushy, but i like!*

wakakakkakakakaka..... so funny!

can really feel the difference even though its just signing a piece of paper... not that i know how to describe how i felt, its just a feel of stability, i guess.. lolx!
felt the weight on my shoulder while reciting the vow..... hence, being me, as expected by most of the people, i letgo a drop of tear.. a drop only okie!

*******

In sickness, I will nurse you to health.

In health, I will nurture you.

In sadness, I will bring you joy.

In happiness, I will share it with you.

In poverty, I will make our love rich.

When you need arrangement, it will be from me.

When you need a helping hand, it will be mine.

With this ring as a token, I now marry you.

***************

be nice to me, i will be nicer to you...

have you ever have this feeling, knowing someone you thought so close to you and yet not close at all?
the feeling is just so superficial, doing for the sake of going through the process with no meaning at all... how terrible that can be? So what is the point of just going through what you "suppose" to do?

just felt that kinda of feeling. wonder if its lucky or unlucky to realise it so late, or rather its never too late.

why is that happening? so what went wrong?
communication breakdown, not wanting to share, not willing to open up, one way traffic.... living in a world full of lies which is the last thing one wants to know. of cos, we can't control/force each to behave the way you wish to, its all human beings.
it is suppose to be this way? NO, it wasn't like that in the past... or rather, it wasn't that bad at all.....

or should something drastic happen before each realised that they had neglected one another, and start feeling guilty and wish things will be better if things had happened in another way?

like what a colleague mentioned which i felt very true, "take care of me, and I will definitely take care of you. Ignore me and I'll ignore you too"....
all starts with "ME".....

its just getting from bad to worst..... why?
of course, many things, once broken, the crack can never be mend.... as much as you wish to...

perhaps i shouldnt be ranting here... but i guess, this is the best way to get things out of my head..... then again, ignoring is the best way to escape, but it will lead you nowhere but sorrows......

the day i went crazy shopping alone in a rainy Harajuku

Welcome our New members to the Piggy Family :)
Great great damage to my dear pocket leaving me super satisfied, *still got room for more!!*
saw many many cute piggies, but im so sorry that i can't bring u all home, cos u are too costly for me... hmmmm.......

Super duper cold of 3degree today, with shower the whole day... bought many many things.. My bag is super packed!!

Happy Tiger Year.... *roar*
my first year missing reunion dinner....... so dinner for me is ebi burger in macdonalds, sitting in between a bunch of Japanese.... :)

2 ROMs in a row :)

11th Dec 09... Ian & Cindy ROM @ PanPacific....

while waiting for the ceremony to start...

very pleasant surprise "walk-in" by the smart uniformed guys... my 1st time watching it too! :)

can't stop laughing at how serious birdy looks... :))

so cute de, their clip, piggy & froggy!! inspired me on how i wana do my montage too! :P

12th Dec 09... Martin & Lena ROM @ SAF chalet

very sweet & light hearted ceremony, the venue is just awesome!! can consider wor...

see the bride & groom, in final fantasy dressing!!! totally cool!

and i think the bunny is 1 of their family member?

notice the 2 boys? so cute! they look so real lor.

very windy, my hair so messy!

humans, so complex, so complicated...

Have you ever......

- behave like another person you dont wish to be?
- felt hurt so badly that u dont know how to be nice again?
- felt so cheated being frank & get insincere responses?
- want to be nice & yet always being taken advantage of (direct/indirectly)?
- wonder y human beings are so complex? y one have to behave that way?
- been so upset upset upset about something, when u can spend your "time being upset" doing other things more useful?
- deep in you, you want to be nice, and yet, you just cant help it to be nasty to protect yourself?
- start playing MIA when you feel "why should i be doing that for"?
- wonder what is karma, and what are the consequences?
- stand on another's position to think?
- wonder what are the consequences?
- wish you know what one is thinking about?
- wish you can turn back time?


So how....

-can u feel less hurt/upset/disappointed?

Its impossible not to think, or just pretend to forget, or just act normal.. Yes, you can find something else to do, but when your brain just stop working for the day, ugly images will just swing around in your mind, haunting you like you are never ever able to escape...


yes, haunt is the word... the word i m most afraid of........ often make one shiver with fear (yes, im shivering now).... for what reason, i dont know...


WHERE ARE THOSE GENUINE SMILES??

A broken glass, no matter how you mend it, there are still cracks that reminds you of how u broke it....


so what went wrong? am i someone who is hard to communicate with? unreasonable? i always believe in karma, cos i know i m not a nice person.. so maybe i am getting it now...
it just doesnt pay to be nice at all..




Resolve: just dont bother... ok.. dont bother..... bring me away please...... just take me away for good. it's just stopping me to take the next big step ahead.... then of cos, y should that be?



PS: just ignore me, im just talking nonsenses......

mum says its not mozzie... :(

sob, who bite me?? mummy say not mozzie leh, dan is simi lai?

my new love

piggies make me smile... :)

what should i do?

it been some time since i last blog... what should i talk about this nice cooling evening, with birdy busy snoring behind me?
this year has really really past super fast! too fast till i can even recall i jz had a Xmas party last year...
it just seems like yesterday!!!

this year is not a very good year for me.. many things happen, many many unpleasant things.. guess, xmas will not be the same for me anymore..
looked through my old pics, so much fun & laughter, everybody was putting on their best smile & laugh on those picts..... it made me smile too...

time to self-reflect:

1. why?
- a very big question, nobody can answer that W H Y ? not even myself.

2. happy?
- used to be cheerful & crazy, wonder where are they now?

3. stop thinking so much
- trying very hard but its not working..

4. forget it
- trying super hard too, you know its not easy.....

5. take a deep breathe!!! you will feel better... do something else to keep yourself occupied.

someone once told me "dont let your surrounding affect your day, YOU DETERMINE how it is going to be!"
- ok, i wana acheive that too......

so.. how? conclusion?
- ............................................................................................................
- just think of happy things
- just talk to my piggies
- staring at them make me smile too

my piggy socks! :))

keeping my feet moist whole night through! :)

birdy's bird's day :*)

some late pics on 14sept, birdy's hatchday.. brought him to EQUINOX! first time up to 70th storey! cool!!

on the way from SAF changi chalet. cool view from the top

i love the cake box

see, the toilet!!! how nice!

we drank this water lor!!! total damage on water only S$31 for 2bottles!!!!!

ling: i wana go toilet

birdy: cannot, dont waste our $31!!! keep in ur body longer!!!! :p